Principle 1 says: "Realize I'm not God. I admit that I am powerless to control my tendency to do the wrong thing and that my life is unmanageable."Once my world came crashing down around me, this was actually a very easy step for me. God slapped me in the face and told me to wake up! I was about to lose the woman I am supposed to marry. I was losing my home. I was leading my 6 year old son straight to the Devil through video games and the media. I was putting my addictions over anybody else, including God.
I got the message loud and clear, either give it up or lose it all. Up until this time though, I had always fought God. I thought I was in control. I thought I controlled my own "destiny". I did have control to an extent, I had control over making things worse. Even to this day, I consider myself to be above average intelligence, but I used to be soooo cocky and rude about it. I thought everybody else was an idiot. I thought I knew everything and if you didn't agree with me you were wrong. It's a miracle anybody liked me at all. I was a jerk. Of course I had my good moments, but behind closed doors I loved to talk about and judge others. I still struggle with that today and pray daily for God to take those defects of character from me. I have to swallow my pride and remember I'm not in control. Everything I have belongs to God. Everything I do should be to honor Him. I don't need to fear this world or anything in it.
After 14 years of drug and alcohol abuse, God broke the shackles and freed me...and all I had to do was ask. He's waiting for you too...He loves you more than you'll ever be able to comprehend. No matter how far we stray, He's always waiting for us to come home and will accept us with open arms. All we have to do is ask.
I'm currently praying for my future mother-in-law to surrender. My fiancee has serious mother wound issues and her mother severely struggles with control and co-dependency issues. Her mother's identity consists of her 2 daughters and she seems to absolutely despise the rest of the world. There's a back story to all of that, but maybe I'll cover that another day. That's a loooong story. Bottom line is that my fiancee is finally getting help so that we may have a healthy marriage and she's finally learning about healthy boundaries. She had a talk with her mom last night and her mother seriously verbally abused her. She mentioned surrendering everything to God and her mom just lost it. There was a verbal attack towards my fiancee and God and basically her mom said she is in control of her own life and nobody can fix her problems but her. It's very sad but we will never stop praying for her. Anything is possible through Christ, I'm living proof of that.
So please take the leap if you're struggling in your life. If you are serious about it and are truly open to Him taking control, He will. It will be the best decision you've ever made. Feel free to reach out to me anytime. I would love to hear from old friends and new people as well. We are all on this journey together.
God Bless.
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